Where The Heck Have I Been – Part 2

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately.  Some may say that’s a bad thing   But, I have been wrestling with how to go about the rest of my weight loss journey and get to that elusive status of reaching “goal” and becoming a Lifetime Weight Watcher member.  It especially bothered my on July 29th.  That was my 2 year anniversary of joining Weight Watchers and even though I kept telling myself that it doesn’t matter how long it takes, it mattered on this day.  Jeez, 2 years.  I would have thought I would have made it to goal by now. But, I haven’t.  And I have been playing with the same 5-7 pounds since January.  It’s been very discouraging.   Anyway, that, along with some other family stuff, threw me into a superfunk that lasted up until last week.  A superfunk consists of tons of emotional eating, extreme crankiness, lethargy and overall lack of joy.  Yes, I was a regular party-in-a-box for these few weeks.  I tried to get my “eating act” together many times during the superfunk, but would generally sabotage myself by mid-afternoon on a daily basis.  Then, my pants got tight and I got really scared.  I did not want to have to buy new clothes in sizes I have seen before.  No way.  So, I came to a pretty extreme decision.  I decided that I would not be worrying about how many POINTS/calories that I can/should eat in a day.  I decided I will trust myself to eat according to my body’s needs.  Basically, I will eat when I’m hungry, eat what my body craves and stop when I am satisfied.  Before you all think that I have completely gone nutso, I did set up some “rules” for myself, including the #1 rule that if I find that I can’t follow through with this new plan and I start going in the wrong direction, I will know that I am not quite ready to fully trust myself to eat, well, like a “naturally thin” person.  So, that’s where I’m at right now.  I guess I can call this another one of my crazy “experiments”.  I really do love the Weight Watcher program.  I know it works;  I can attribute 70 lbs. lost to following the plan.  But, I feel like I’m ready for something different;  not another plan, just a different way to approach how I eat.  I’ll talk more about my thoughts on this in the coming posts so as to not  write a novel tonight for you guys!  Let’s get to the food!

I have been totally digging this cereal the past week…

I had about a 1/2 cup topped with some blueberries and unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze…

Another change I’ve made is to wean myself from Splenda.  I have been doing my coffee with some fat-free half and half or skim milk and I’ve been liking it…

For lunch, I was in the mood for a tofu scramble.  In the mix…

• 1/2 block of Nasoya Lite Firm Tofu
• 2 tbsp. chopped red onion
• handful of sliced baby bella mushrooms
• 1/4 c. chopped roasted red pepper
• slice of 2% cheese
• s + p

Filling and just right…

I need a little crunch to go with it.  Remember these guys???

They don’t scare me so much anymore!  It’s the new attitude ;P

I invited Gram over for dinner tonight.  In honor of her joining us, I made her green beans recipe along with Parmesan Chicken Cutlets and roasted sweet potatoes… 

I felt satisfied with dinner, so no dessert.  Are you guys wondering who the heck I am???  I know, it seems crazy for me to not have dessert, but I’m not missing it so much right now, so I’m ridin’ the wave =)

Before I hit the hay, I wanted to say thank you to everyone for the warm welcome back!  It feels so good to be blogging again and I’m looking forward to catching up with everyone’s blogs, too!

Have a great night =)