Lost And Found
Happy Monday 
How is everyone? I’ve had a busy, but really fun weekend! The husband came back from a business trip, so I was excited to spend time with him when he got back. Then, we had the last of big daughter’s basketball games on Saturday followed by a season-end party at our house. It was a blast with lots of laughs. And drinks. And food 
Needless to say, I was not counting anything and pretty much after my 3rd glass of wine (big for me, since I don’t normally drink), didn’t care what I was eating…
Hellooooooo, vegetarian lady????!!! Ugh. It didn’t even hit me until Sunday that I ate PEPPERONI! Bad enough it’s pepperoni and it sure as heck ain’t vegetarian!
I also couldn’t resist trying a chocolate peanut butter brownie!
That was vegetarian 
It wasn’t a horrible free-for-all in the eating department, but what I realized is that crap begets crap. I feel like crap when I eat those heavy foods. It also drives me to crave more crap. I fought those cravings all day on Sunday, sometimes giving in and sometimes snapping out of it. It was one of those days without a “serious” meal, just lots of snacking and nibbling of this and that.
I was kinda bummed about my choices. I didn’t beat myself up, but I wasn’t thrilled with myself. I realized that it’s harder to “forgive” yourself for the indulgences when you feel like you haven’t “finished the job”, so to speak. I feel the pull of guilt because I haven’t gotten to goal or where I want to be. And actually, these past couple of weeks, it seems like I’m getting further and further away.
The Universe even sent me this message…
No one loses anything, Marisa, that doesn’t eventually come back.
And I fear that is true. I don’t know for certain because I have not gotten on the scale, but I “feel” it. Sigh.
So, what’s a girl to do? Give up. Eat away and gain it ALL back. Nah, you know that’s not my style! I’m gonna keep trying, keep pushing, keep working, keep searching for what will work for me, keep learning and keep exercising. For one day, SUCCESS will be found
Have a great day, everyone!
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24 comments
I know the feeling! I hate eating crap because I just want more! We were out of town all weekend and I did horrible….back to healthy stuff today!
Marisa Reply:
March 15th, 2010 at 10:29 am
True that!
It’s not falling that will get us, but the letting a fall bury us that is the problem. Slip ups happen- it’s done, can’t be changed so just move on. It’s a whole new day !
On the wine- I am giggling. I cannot even drink a single glass of the stuff ! As a teen I had a serious problem with both drugs and alcohol and worked hard to rid them from my life ( successfully I might add). I finally got to the place where i could have one glass of wine without going into a place where it made me binge drink, but then a miracle occurred. My body became so completely intolerant of alcohol that a mere sip of wine gives me absolutely incredible heartburn, so I don’t even try to drink anymore. The same thing happened with milk chocolate, so i don’t even try to eat that anymore.
Wine does that to me too… I’ve learned that I can’t have any more than two glasses
We all have been there! Don’t think I could resist that brownie either! YUM! weekends are the hardest for me. Monday’s are good they always seem to get you back to where you need to be.
We’ve all done it. And alcohol seems to trigger “I don’t care what I eat” type of response. At least it always does for me.
One thing that’s interesting is that a study was done that showed that a meal high in saturated fat will cause you to crave similar crappy foods for up to 3 days! And it also disrupts your brain’s ability to send/receive the message that the tummy is full. Weird, huh?!
Just get right back on track. I’ve seen your blog when you put your mind to something. You can’t be stopped! So just get right back to it. It’s ok. We all have days of high calorie eating but ti’s nothing to feel guilty over. It’s just food. It’s not like you slapped your kid with that piece of pizza. Then you would feel guilty! a little. Weight loss is a marathon, not a sprint. ANd I know you can do it!
I think you have a great attitude about this. I was just having a similar conversation with my mom, and we decided that we are just going to keep on trying, keep on fighting every single day until it sticks. It may take longer than we’d like, but we won’t ever quit.
Oh, and chocolate peanut butter brownies?! I feel like I have lived a deprived life…must try those!
i am a new follower and didn’t realize you are vegetarian. at least you didn’t consume an entire pizza…which i have been known to do!
Marisa Reply:
March 15th, 2010 at 10:30 am
Just doing the vegetarian stint for Lent
I feel the same way when I eat crap, you just feel yucky… it’s hard fighting the urge too after you’ve given into it. I fell off the wagon last night with eating two skinny cows & nachos…. ewww.
I subsisted on beer and pizza this weekend. Sigh. It’s Monday though – i’m going to try to focus and get back to the gym after being out sick for a week. Starting over, yet again!
That PB brownie looks awesome….
lol oh that is kinda funny about the pepperoni!
Move on, its only one day of food and drinking. 
I use Sunday’s as my “use any and all weeklies day” so I totaled up at 41 for yesterday. But now they are gone, today will be a OP 22 day, and tomorrow is weigh in. 
Sounds like you had fun though! 
I had to giggle at your post about the “vegetarian lady” lol. Cute. Slip-ups happen, especially when you say you aren’t eating something but whoops! You ate it w/out realizing it! No worries, just get right back on.
And giving up never helps! Keep pushing! That’s what champions are made of! And you, Marisa, are a champion! Here me??
that is okay that happens to me when i drink too! just eat really clean the next two days and you will feel great
glad you had a fun weekend! hate those drunchies.. eh. happens to us all! my weekend was similar~ but today is a new day, right? right!
I totally understand your crap begets crap idea, I’m eating vegan…and yet somehow found the most rich vegan places/foods to go with my friends, my stomach was SO confused afterwards. Sometimes it takes a thousand tries to win,but you’ll do it
We have similar messages today! I know you won’t give up – you’ve come way too far. One night of “sinful” eating won’t undo all the many wonderful things you’ve accomplished!
I had to laugh at your Hello Vegetarian Lady! Well alcohol certaintly plays a part in reasoning and clear thinking regarding choices.
Do not let one day, one meal, one set of choices define who you are or determine if you are successful or not.
It is the sum of all of your days, choices and meals that count.
One meal of eating like that does not undo all of the months of eating good, exercising and good choices that you have made.
We learn from our mistakes and next time you will have a plan that will work for you.
Isn’t it amazing how a little junk makes you feel SO BAD? Ugh. Don’t worry too much about the pepperoni pizza. My philosophy on becoming a vegetarian is that I spent most of my life eating meat, and it’s not going to completely disappear from my diet overnight. There will be slip ups and completely unconscious meat eating while you’re on the road to true vegetarianism. During this lifestyle transition, I’ve found that being forgiving and tolerant is the best approach. Just get back on the wagon
One of my goals this year is to completely stop feeling guilty about “indulgences” and just learn to enjoy life and know that you can always work it off later.
Dust yourself off and get back on plan. Days like that are part of life. It’s when you string a lot of days together like this one that will cause the backslide.
Hang in there, Marisa. I’ve been feeling the same way about food–I feel like crap when I eat stuff that isn’t good for me. The problem is, it tastes so good in my mouth!
Yes, eating crap makes you want to eat more crap. BUT, a day of “good eats” makes you crave veggies and fruits!
I hope you had a good Monday!
Hi Marisa, I’m a new follower. I had to comment because I nearly ate my computer screen when I saw that chocolate peanut butter brownie! It’s blogs like yours that remind that each meal and each day is another opportunity to make good choices. Life happens and we can’t be perfect all the time. We can’t beat ourselves up for one indulgent day. However, I am learning that jumping back on that proverbial horse is so important.
Congratulations on your recent running success. I am a beginning runner and your 5 mile story was so inspiring.
Sunday is all behind you. Hope you have a great week!